Thursday, 30 April 2009
Sometimes my teens are capable of the greatest sweetness.
This came with my present:
The slim, wrinkle-free, top bird is, apparently, me. I WISH. Mind you, when they want to, they can certainly put me in my place. I remember one occasion, several years ago now, my daughter had a nightmare and wanted to sleep for the remainder of the night in my bed. The next morning, I turned to her sleepily and looked at her lovely little face, flushed pink with sleep, and I smiled gently at her. She smiled back and said: "Your face is all wrinkly, like Granny."
Actually on that subject I have just this minute bought from Boots.com their latest "miracle" cream, No7 Protect & Perfect Intense Beauty Serum. In four weeks, I fully expect to look, ooh, at least six months younger. Man, I hope it works. I've got frown lines that make me look like Evil Edna.
Remember Willo The Wisp?
I'm also going to take the opportunity of saying huge thank you to all the wonderful people on Twitter who wished me a happy birthday. Many of them asked me what I would be doing to celebrate my birthday and I told them all that I would be going to Hales Bar in town for their Stars in your Eyes competition with a bunch of friends, most of whom are gay. Henri is coming with me. She'll be meeting everyone - including me - for the first time, so I hope to God it's a good night and everyone behaves. Having been informed about the planning revelries, Carrie asked if she was allowed to refer to me as a "fag hag" (saying she was one herself). I rather think I am. But are you?
Answer the following questions:
Your significant other dumps you. What do you do?
* Cry hysterically for a week, refuse to get out of bed and check your mobile for signal every 30 seconds
* Indulge in a spot of retail therapy, then go out with your mates and get blind drunk
* Invite your friends round to bitch about what a loser your ex is, drink copious amounts of champagne and finish the evening performing a selection of Broadway musicals
Speaking of musicals, what is your favourite Julie Andrews show?
* Mary Poppins
* The Sound of Music
* Who the hell is Julie Andrews?
Have you ever had a boyfriend who later turned out to be gay?
* Don’t be ridiculous
* Not that I’m aware of, but so what anyway?
* So that’s what happened to my shimmering cleavage enhancer after we broke up
Your local gay bar is:
* Against God’s law
* Really good fun, actually
* About to name a cocktail after you
When you go out on a Saturday night, your aim is to get:
Answer yes or no:
* Has a friend ever left you alone in a strange city in the middle of the night because he met someone cute and had to have sex immediately? (Award yourself an extra bonus point if he was dressed as a woman and had all your money in his purse.)
How did you do?
Monday, 27 April 2009
What else should I do to set a good example to the Spawn? They're not accepting, biddable little toddlers any more. They're capable of making their own, considered judgements now and are quite happy to interrupt my rants with completely irrefutable remarks regarding my own failings. My previous fallback position of: "Never mind what Mummy does, that's not your concern," just doesn't cut it.
I have therefore vowed that from now on, I will:
Work with neglected children. Preferably my own, although guarantees cannot be given.
Open my bank statements when they arrive, not file them down the back of the hall table.
Ditto credit card statements.
Develop a lasting friendship with at least one man who isn’t gay (re guarantees: see first point).
Hand my mobile phone to a trusted friend before embarking on a night out, to stop me from ringing old/ex boyfriends when I am cocooned in a happy cocktail-induced haze.
Expunge from my mobile phone all the numbers that I either never call or have no idea who they are, but only keep in my phone to reassure myself that I have the acceptable number of friends.
Tolerate fools better, provided this does not encourage them to take up more of my time.
Stop correcting people’s grammar and pronunciation (with one exception: anyone who says “pacific” instead of “specific” must be punished ruthlessly).
Give up drinking alcohol.
Except at parties.
And when having dinner with friends.
And when I’ve had a hard day.
Empty the cat litter tray on a regular basis instead of waiting until it looks like an IRA dirty protest.
Stop spending hours on Twitter whilst pretending it is "work”.
Stop dating men who have no recollection of Charles and Di's wedding because they weren't born then.
It's over to you now, people. What will you vow to do in future?
I have been asked to publish the following anonymously. Read it and I think you will see why...
I vow never again to clean the rim of the en suite toilet with husband's toothbrush - unless under extreme provocation - for heaven's sake it's not unreasonable of me to expect him not to say hello.
I will not feign how much I will miss him whenever he travels away from home. I will not plot & plan dastardly things I could do whenever he is away from home. (Sadly these only ever stay at the plotting and planning stage - but infidelity is a state of mind, is it not?)
I vow never to swear again (however elegantly, relevantly and indeed, in received pronunciation) and then tell my child that it would be quite wrong to copy Mummy
I will not encourage my child to read books or watch programmes that are way out of his age group because I need someone intelligent to discuss them with & husband doesn't come into that category.
Never again will I allow myself to play the drunken dialling game. No-one wants to hear from me at 3.00am no matter how much they profess to love me.
I will never visit any of my inlaw's homes again and deliberately break something.
Easier actually just never to visit any of my inlaw's homes again.
I will never again express surprise when my child finds nefarious substances in my office drawer and then say "What a silly place for Mummy to have put her herbal tea". (I vow to find a safer hiding place).
I vow never again to have a period that lasts for three solid months and will revert to trusted method of telling my husband that I have a headache like normal women do.
I will never again speak to ex boyfriends when husband is at home. They do not like to be called Susan or Hermione.
I vow never again to mark letters from banks or building societies and then send them back with the advice that I refuse to respond to them until they start to write in proper English.
I will not giggle uncontrollably at funerals.
I will not make a stye look much worse than it is by adding purple & green eye make up.
I will be honest when books arrive for me from Amazon & will stop telling husband how lovely it is of best friend to have sent gifts to me.
I will generally become a much nicer person and will stop being sarcastic.
I will try hard to stop lying about becoming a nicer person and not being sarcastic.
Saturday, 25 April 2009
So, following on my from post about shopping at Lidl I thought I would tell you about the place where I shop most frequently: Kings Road (no apostrophe). It is a lovely place and only a short cycle ride from my home. However, the route to Kings Road involves two hills (well, they're hills to me) and I don't like cycling up hills. Neither are very steep, but but I am not yet fit enough to cycle up both in one go. I make it to the top of the first one, then I have to get off and prat around with the wheels of my cycle in order to give passing traffic the impression that I have only stopped to check something important, not because I am a purple-faced slob with burning thighs.
Sunday, 19 April 2009
You’re more excited about being invited to the above on a Sunday than going out the night before
When you open the pages of your weekly local newspaper, you go straight to the “Planning Permission Granted” column to spy on your neighbours rather than read the court round-up to spy on your friends
You cry at Britain's Got Talent
You see someone else's point of view - first
At any sporting occasion, you leave early to “beat the rush”
Rather than throw a knackered pair of trainers out, you decide to keep them because they’ll “do” for the garden
You buy Birkenstocks because they’re comfy, not because they’re fashionable
You only go to bars where they have comfy seats, because, you know, you like to sit down
You use words like “comfy”
You buy t-shirts without anything written on them
You need "something sweet" to finish off a meal
At night time, you like to "get settled"
Sometimes when your teen children are playing loud music, you say "I remember this the first time round”
You punctuate your conversation with meaningless phrases such as “believe you me”
After five minutes in a club you leave, not because you’ve had enough but because you can’t stand having to shout “WHAT?” and, God help you, cupping your ear every time someone speaks to you
You start to see the point of boxed wine
You always have eggs and milk in
You don’t think there’s anything boring about a four-door car
The kids you once babysat for are now fighting in Afghanistan
That pair of tummy-flattening Spanx you bought is getting a lot of mileage
After sex you wonder if it would be inappropriate to put the bottom sheet straight into the wash
You watch The Apprentice and blather on to anyone who will listen about how you wouldn’t employ any of them and anyway, not one of them knows how to draw up a decent marketing plan blah blah
When you get up in the morning and look in the bathroom mirror, you see your Mother looking back at you
You realise that your mother was right about most things (dammit)
You go to bed at 11pm, as opposed to thinking about getting ready to go out at 11pm
You raise the median age of your Pilates class by your mere presence
You start to wonder who on earth you’re keeping in shape for – it’s not like your cats are bothered
You have cats
(With thanks to Twitter friends AnotherJulia, Clareharryruby, Gibbzer, Kirstieh and ClareH)
Saturday, 18 April 2009
When I was newly single a few years ago, I rather expected things would carry on as before, only with one less person, yet I found myself shunned by the married community. Friends - good friends - who would previously include me in their dinner parties, trips to the theatre, holidays even, completely and utterly dropped me. If I extended an invitation, they were mysteriously busy. The only conclusion I could draw from this mean-spirited behaviour was that they thought I would, without question, go after their troglodyte husbands. This was confirmed when I got myself a boyfriend (a ridiculous term when one is 40, but what else to call him?) and I was back on the invitation list. Two years later when we split up, I was dropped again.
Anyway, this whingeing is for the purposes of scene-setting only, as my married friends are not my friends any longer (and half of them have got divorced themselves now, HA) and I move in different circles.
No, I'm telling you this because a while ago, when I was moaning about my single state, a fellow single friend suggested internet dating. I didn't like the sound of this. All the match.com ads have an air of of both superiority and desperation about them ("What? Not found your soul mate after six months? Tsk. Go on then. Have the next six months' membership free, you LOSER.")
Unless you're a member, you're only allowed a sneak preview of the goods on offer. If I wanted the full low-down, I would have to join one. But which one? There's tons of them. Some, judging by the photographs, seemed to specialise in people who had recently been released into the community. Others suggested you submit yourself to a personality test in order to ensure compatibility. (A brief side note here: surely the point of dating is to hide all your ghastly faults until you’ve successfully ensnared your prey?) Some were right out there on the fringes of ‘dating’, dedicated to nothing more refined than a couple of hours of, ahem, activity.
These sites, although populated with photographs of upstanding members, they weren’t the kind of members I had in mind. In the end, I chose to join the dating website of one of the UK’s most reputable broadsheets. This dating website would, I was confident, present me with a gorgeous man who had no hang-ups, issues, baggage, bizarre fetishes or crushing debt. How wrong can a girl be?
I looked through the photographs first (yes, I'm shallow, I know). Each photograph had a jaunty alias attached, usually along the lines of “Funkindaguy” or “Happy2shag”. “Made4luvinU” leered at me unpleasantly from his photograph, the shoulder of his girlfriend still clearly in shot. One very good-looking chap had given himself the rather startling moniker of “Tinseltits”, although with hindsight I suspect he hadn’t paid close enough attention to which box he had ticked in the Sexual Preferences section.
Some less confident candidates clearly felt their looks didn’t quite cut it, and so included a photo of themselves with their car, a Ford Focus presumably counting as the clincher should any fair maiden be dithering about. A large number of men posted photographs of themselves in Thailand, usually pictured with an elephant, or, more worryingly, a small boy. At the less glamorous end of the destination market was a hopeless-looking chap photographed in his garden, his face best described as plain but his begonias, magnificent.
And who is to say any of these chaps would want me? Nope, I don't want to do it. I just don't like the whole arranged marriage atmosphere of dating websites and anway pretty much everyone says the same things about themselves. If these people are to be believed, it is one of the great mysteries of our time as to why the centre of every town, city, hell - VILLAGE, in Britain isn't absolutely deserted at the weekend, as all declare themselves to be lovers of fresh air, long country walks, fireside chats, red wine and watching old movies.
It might work for some - indeed, it must work for some - but it's not for me. I shall carry on as before. And tell you about it.
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
Top of my list is the strange mixture of eccentricity and banality that is Gwyneth Paltrow. Through the auspices of her website, Goop, I learn that Ms Paltrow is returning to her "day job". Ironically, Oscar-winner Gwyneth feels she has to enlarge on what this day job actually entails "(filming a movie)" in case I have forgotten what it is she does, apart from wear ovary-skimming dresses and have lunch with Madonna.
I like to think Gwyneth writes Goop herself, because if she doesn't, she needs to sack her copy editor pronto. She's had a good look through the Spring collections, has Gwyneth, and she's not noticed anything particularly revolutionary. Indeed, "They are still selling gladiators that are almost identical to the ones I got last spring." Really? Gladiators like, you know, Spartacus? Or the kind that wears a leotard? Frustratingly, Gwyneth does not say.
However, she is prepared to share one or two insider tips for her readers' Spring wardrobes, tips which I will be following the minute I have any money. What should I wear to cater for the warm/cool/changeable Spring weather, Gwyneth? Like a fashion confucius, she is on hand to set us on the right track. Trenchcoat, jeans and a pair of flats. Who knew?
She's on less sure ground though when she tells us that jumpsuits "work well with any shape". What shapes would those be, Gwyn? Twiglet? Toothpick? And Gwyneth models a jumpsuit for us herself, her botoxed face failing to expunge the embarrassed gleam in her eye that says "Uh-oh. I look crap, don't I?"
Oh, Drew Barrymore. Heidi meets Racing Stripes.
But look! She's not the only one!
Only Gwen Stefani looks comfortable, as indeed she should, the dress being her own L.A.M.B. label. Thandi's mouth is smiling but her eyes suggest that the minute she gets home, that Giles Deacon frock is going straight on E-bay. And as for Sienna's Calvin Klein ensemble: the whole outfit smacks of indecision. "Do I pull the dress up a bit? What about pulling the shoulders down a bit? Up a bit? Down a bit? Just, sort of, you know, crumple it a bit? Oh crap. There's no time to blow-dry my hair now."
Monday, 13 April 2009
I am not party to any of these negotiations as I am not allowed to talk to the Ex (I'm afraid I am sufficiently petty that I usually refer to him as the Vile Ex but here I will attempt to be better than that). In the decade since we divorced we have had periods when we speak, periods when we speak a lot and periods when we don't speak at all. We are not speaking now because last year my son broke his wrist playing rugby and had to undergo two separate operations, both times under general anaesthetic, to reset his wrist and the Ex refused to visit him in hospital as it was "inconvenient". Yes, he lives in Hertfordshire these days, but still. Or perhaps you think me unreasonable to mind this? Anyway, I reacted with fury and since then there has been no contact.
Anyway, he generally communicates with his children - well, my children with him - via email. Christmas Day, for example. One line. He was on holiday somewhere - I think it might have been Mexico, none of us were told exactly - but surely his hotel must have had a telephone? To be fair, he had met them in November and bought his son an i-pod as his Christmas present. His daughter had been invited to Barbados with a mate (wowser, not jealous at all) so I paid for the flight and he gave her her spending money. However, this money was in lieu of both her Christmas and Birthday presents. I might add her father is extremely rich. That's all I'm saying.
I whinged about this rather a lot and eventually one of my closest friends told me that I did this with boring regularity and I should give myself and everyone else a break and stop it. Once I'd come out of my huff I recognised that she was probably right. Okay, absolutely right. I can't do anything about his behaviour and I might as well shake my fist at the sky when it rains for all the good it does.
So far this year, the kids have seen their father once. In March. Actually I'm wrong, only my son saw him as my daughter was competing in a singing festival and also singing at Ripon Cathedral on the day he chose to visit Yorkshire. He bought my son a laptop for his birthday. This was absolutely brilliant, my son was thrilled, but it rather raised one or two thorny questions of equality with his sister (see above).
I'm fearful as to how they will cope for a month with two adults they barely know, their two step-sisters (19 year old twins, I've met them once, seem perfectly nice) they barely know and a three year old half brother they barely know (but like, naturally). Of course, a month-long holiday in what will, without question, be luxurious surroundings must be view as a GOOD THING and I do view it that way, honestly I do. More importantly, it might result in a better relationship with their Father and Step-Mother which again, is a GOOD THING. And there's bound to be exciting sight-seeing trips and so on. All GOOD THINGS.
I do wish I could afford to take the kids on such a holiday though. I'm small and petty aren't I?